Well tonight during the conference in front of thousands of youth Kagan got a call from the stage LIVE! It caused some teary eyes and some big smiles.
During the call (which Kagan said was Awesome - - - - a few times ), Lanny (aka Mr. Big Stuf) asked him if he could say anything to the thousands of people there what would it be. He answered "God is Great"!
Now, go back 10 minutes before this call. We were just discussing the facts of radiation, the fact that his neck had not gone down all the way like they hoped and that it looks like we are not going to be in the "easy track" of this protocol. It seems that radiation and surgeries are in future since the ultrasound indicated "worrisome results" (per the Radiologist report today).
Fast forward to 5 minutes after this call when Kagan's chemotherapy was set to begin for the night. Right before he could really dread the beginning he got this uplifting call of thousands of teens CHEERING HIM ON.
The reason - GOD IS GREAT!
The most amazing thing is that this is Kagan's response in front of a few, in front of us, in front of thousands or whomever. Never ashamed, Never let down, Never discouraged because he knows that God is good all the time.
So, that brings me to the part of me that wishes that when I grow up that I could be like my children. All three of them have such precious hearts and are all around good kids. They are not perfect ( I mean we will not get started on the whole chore thing or the not arguing with one another; but other than that) but they are good kids.
I would love to have the confidence that Kenadee has. I am in awe of her ability to just be her. I mean, she can be all girl and she can play as hard as any boy. She has a strength about her that is amazing.
I would be well served to have Kade's passions. When he believes in something or someone he gives it 100% of himself - all out - no hold's bar. He is kind, he is loving and he caring. Those traits combined with his passion are amazing to me.
Then Kagan has a inner quite spirit that is so gentle. He is fully sold out to God's direction for his life and has such strength because of it. This total trust in God leads him and we have seen it for years.
Now, watching Kagan deal with this battle of his cancer with such strength. The most amazing thing is that he can say so little but everyone is noticing it. He is not bible beating or quoting scripture. He is silently living out his faith and the doctors and nurses are noticing. The other patients have noticed. The other kids are noticing and mentioning it.
Oh how I long to have the traits of my children when I grow up.
Thank you God for entrusting me with living examples of your love! I could not be more humbled than I am when watching them be more than who I am.
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