Mission: Chemo Complete

The last few days I have not published my post because I have decided that the post written while in the hospital and first night home are pretty much too raw and make me sound like more of  a lunatic than I want to be.   I will maybe post them someday for those who follow my blog because they too have a loved one that is going thru what Kagan is. For them, they will find it normal but for others maybe not.


Emotions at this time are running very high.   Basically though we are getting to the point where Kagan is going to get busy living the life that he fought so valiantly to live.   


The next few weeks will be hard, I will not lie.   I spent most of yesterday trying to put my thoughts around what is next and how to sort out the next steps.   Oddly, the chemo treatments had become the normal and after this week we leave the comfort of that "road map" that told us what comes next.  After Thursdays chemo - the next parts are unknown! 


What we know is yet to come is  - more testings, more appointments, more testings and then in about a month ANSWERS!



As the days have passed, I will tell you that our parents have made such a big difference in our journey.  I don't think I will ever get to old to need my parents with me.  Thank you Momma and Daddy from the bottom of my heart for being where I could land to get strength to to hold up my family.  You both will NEVER know how much I love you both for everything you have done.  Thank you to my mother-in-law (Jeanne) for pretty much rearranging her whole life to be where I needed her to be when I needed her to be.   I am very fortunate to have a mother-in-law who loves my kids so much and  who I can always depend on.  I love you very much! Thank you to Kaleb's dad for reaching out at the right time and sharing your concern.  It meant more than you will ever know.  Thank you all for loving your grandson so much and giving him love!