Jelly Bean

"The Culprit" is getting down to the size of a jelly bean!  It is still changing sizes and the infection is still hanging on there but we are praying that it is just infection and no cancer.   I hate that little thing so much!     Now that Kagan is finished with the antibiotic we will watch it the next few days to see how it reacts without the medicine being taken each day.

On the light side cancer jokes are quite the common thing in our house these days.  It is odd how you begin to laugh at things that you can't otherwise change.  I am sure that it will warp my children (and me) but the laughter is worth it these days. 

We have decided that Kagan is going to do his very best to begin back to school next week.  This decision has been made with a heavy heart and also with lots of emotions.  I know that it will be good for him but it is getting harder each day that it becomes closer.   If it does not work, we have a Plan B and Plan C already in place.

Today was a hard day.  I just had a lot of emotions that I had not dealt with.  I was thankful for Kaleb to come to my rescue.  He just showed up and rescued me from a day of gloom and doom.  Thank you, my love!