Daily Dose

The best thing about life is change.  The worse thing about life is change.  Ironic, huh?    I guess it just depends on the acceptance of the change that makes it a good or bad thing.   


For us, we are learning to be even more accepting of change than we were.  We are accepting that we can't control some things but with change we can at least alter how we feel about it.


Today we went to the hospital for a battery of test to be done to check on Kagan's progression and to check to see if while the chemo is treating the cancer that it is not causing any of the long list of side effects that can be almost as brutal as the chemo.   


The hospital was soooo busy today with news crews, parties, arts and crafts and etc. for the Christmas in July toy drive.  It was so heart warming to see how many people that go out of their way to give to children so that they can bless children during the year.   We even got to see Santa (even though Kagan refused to go "meet" him).  


After we got thru with the test that were scheduled in the children's hospital we went to the medical arts building to finish up.  After some scrambling they determined that they had rescheduled those test for Monday!   

Monday is already full of a battery of test at some doctor's office who are seeing Kagan so now we have the juggle in these test back at the hospital as well.  

Normally, I get frustrated by things like this but today I was just like "Okay, I will see you Monday!" I think this is a good sign that I am adjusting to last minute changes.  

We got home and then it was time to flush the PICC line.  The dang thing did not work again!  I hate this particular PICC line.   Luckily, Kagna was able to bend his arm and put his hand on the top of his head to make a L shape of his arm and it worked just fine.   Not optimal but it worked and that is a good thing.  I had to call the clinic and they told me some things to be on the look out for but did not have us come in quite yet.  Just praying that it will be okay until Monday.   

He is still struggling with all the sores in his mouth. It looks painful and is still giving him a hard time talking, eating and swallowing.  Poor thing, I think this has been the most uncomfortable thing he has to go thru.  

Yet, the stinker sent me photos of his mouth along with an article about mouth cancer.  Is he trying to give me a heart attack?   Funny thing is that his humor about it is still there and I am learning to accept that this is his way of dealing with it.  Can you say BIG CHANGE?  




This week we have also learned that I have gall stones, kidney stones, an ulcer, an infection in my stomach and few other minor ailments.  Fun stuff.  So much of what is going one with me is pinpointed to have a lot to do with STRESS!  Maybe learning to roll with the punches and accept change will help me get better.  I will be seeing the doctors and talking about surgery after Kagan's next round of chemo.   Who would have thought in the middle of all this, I would be having all this going on at the same time?  

Thank you so much to all who have been praying and keeping up with our family.  We most certainly feel your warm thoughts in our heart and could not be more comforted.